Omg, quick somebody ask me what CD I'm on!!! ...because I have no idea! How can this be that every second of my life has not been devoted to CD's, minutes, seconds? Don't get me wrong, I still know the first day I can do an hpt.... (One week from today, ahem).... I guess it's because I have no hope, er... expectations for this month.
Note to reproductive self: like a knocked up high school drop out, you have screwed up so many times that I have ceased having any realistic expectations from you. You will not go to college and you will not marry your baby daddy.
So, there it is. The secret to mental bliss during the fight against if. Better yet, the secret to mental bliss during the 2WW. Try it out, maybe it'll work for you.
Okay, the truth is... I went in on CD11 for a follie check. There were 2 jumbo sized, ready to rock. Super.omg.getout. Much excitement over this cuz #1 the clomid worked, holy crickee. #2 it before day 20 (my "normal" ov day). #3 there were 2! Joy and joyness a Christmas miracle, double the chances!
That was a thurs, Dr. Poc said I'd ov that weekend...
That weekend came and went... No positive opk. For realz. Visualize balloon losing air.
On the Monday following I went in for blood work and did the trigger injection. This put ov to day 17. Less than stellar, but still acceptable.
Now... What day are we on? Who knows, who cares. I have a feeling it didn't work. That my hopped up on hormones self, hot flashes, and migraines were all for nothing. What's the plan for next month? I haven't the foggiest. Don't know, don't care.
Oh, and also, the onslaught of December has made me realize that I have ovulated a whopping grant total of 2 times all year.
Tell me, have you been through a Who Gives a Crap phase? And, how long can I look forward to it? Cause I am not minding the view from here.
Note: I do not think HS KU drop outs are worthless. If you are one, or are a recovering HS KU know that you are very worth-ful(?)... Example used for illustrative purposes only. Please don't send me hate mail. Kthxbye
The Brambles
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Hey Kansas! I am firmly ensconced in the *who gives a crap* phase and totally have to agree with you-you just get to the point where you are like, you know what, I can't think about this for another second or my head will explode! Ugh. It is just not fair that you have only ovulated twice this year-you have every right to be feeling this way. We will get there in the end, but in the meantime...crap, just struggling along each month is tough. I hear everything you're saying, you are not alone in this!! (((BIG SQUEEZY HUG)))
I love the note to HS drop outs. :)
You never know who you're going to rile up, right?
I hope you have some good news really soon!
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